I'm so very sorry that you are suffering through the pain of depression! My heart truly goes out to you!

   I have bipolar disorder so I understand how depression can be!

   My meds help so very much- though I have been experiencing afternoon depressions.

   Your will be in my thoughts and prayers,

               Jewel

Do you remember the part where the men brought a woman to Jesus because she commited adultry? One of the Pharisees asked Jesus of what shall they do to the woman for she did one of the most deadliest sin? Usually that woman would be stone to death outside of the city's wall - the old ways of the Jews. But Jesus said that whoever has never sin can cast the first stone. And that did it! They all were dumbfounded by it and they thought they could make a fool out of Jesus at the same time, but they were wrong. Everyone leaves after that ... and no men left to stone that woman at all. The only person left is Jesus Himself.

He approached that woman and said, "Go! And sin no more ..." He did this with love and he did it with a pure heart. You see, those people who accused you that way has forgotten that they too are sinners. No one is save until you are fully believing in Jesus's love and that Jesus did taught about forgiveness since in the first place.

So, if they don't forgive you and love you, I'll give you my love in Christ and forgive you your sins. Do you remember the Father's Prayer?

Our Father who art in Heaven, Holy be Your Name, Your Kingdom come, You will be done, On Earth as it is in Heaven, Give us these days our daily bread, Forgive Us our sins as We Forgive those SINS against us. Amen.

Jesus said it clear to his disciples through this prayer alone ... Do you get it what I mean now? So, be happy and you know that Jesus loves you.

im probably too young.
for you to take me seriously when i say this.
and i am not some relgious goody goody.
becuase Lord knows i have sinned enough in my life.
but we all have sinned.
we are all human.
and personally i dont believe that one sin is worse then the rest.
its just how we are, we are humans.
but god is a gracious god.
and a forgiving god.
at least this is what i have come to learn.
in my short time on this earth.
and i pray that you find peace within.
becuase even if you have commit a sin.
and you cant always change the past.
you and aim to change the future.
just some thoughts from a seventeen years young girl.
i hope it helped just a little.

god bless, i will pray for you.

Tonight...nor any other night!!!!!

NEVER.

you can talk to me...ill listen.

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You know, I have always longed for this kind of connection. I thought that I could never experience it, but once I did, though it was one sided. After knowing this guy for only a few minutes, I felt a connection that I just couldn't deny. He said he felt the same way, though only a couple of days later he told me that he was engaged and that he was serious about this other girl and that he wouldn't cheat on her to have me.

I honestly did not get out of bed for six months. I cried and cried, unable to move on, even though I was married and had a son. Meeting that guy was selfish. I was ready for a full blown affair and if he would've been single I would've stayed with him and given up a fifteen year relationship with my husband.

Never in my life had a experienced so much love for another person and at the time I really regretted that it hadn't worked out, that I hadn't met him six months prior.

But it just wasn't meant to be.

Maybe somehow, the two of you will find a way to be together, even if it breaks some hearts. Something like what you shared CAN'T be denied. So rarely is it two people feel like the two of you feel. A lot of the times it is one sided, but for you guys, it's an equal match.

I hope that the two of you can be together.

he's out there. don't look for him because he'll find you at "THE" most unexpecting time in your life. Read this book called "in the meantime" by iyana vanzerit(i don't know if the last night is right but the first name should be good enough check it out on amazon.com)

have a blessed day

i want to be your friend and follow your diary.

your story touched me in so many ways its unbeliviable. you've been through so much and you've overcome. your baby is in heaven watching over you. i usually don't believe in abortion but your story swayed my belifs. your babys father didn't deserve such a precious gift and maybe you weren't ready at the time.

live each day to make your baby proud

your human. humans have feelings. your not an idiot! hang in there

  I knew when I stopped in your diary the first time that it was going to be worth the visit, but I had no idea how glad I was going to be for having done so....this is one of the most honest, and deepest sharings I have seen in anyone's diary here. I knew you were a special lady from those old entries you wrote, and you have proven me right beyond my own imagination with this story of your life and the events that have shaped you into the woman you have become.
  I want you to know that your baby is in heaven, and he/she is waiting for you to join them someday--and you will be together forever! Babies don't make the conscious choice to sin in their lives, so they have no willful sins to be accountable for; so they ALL become a part of God's family when they are taken from this life at such early ages. You metioned that God is a part of your life, so if you have believed in His Son as your Savior--you WILL see your baby again, and FOREVER!
  God's Word promises us that He places our past mistakes as far as the east is from the west when we ask Him to forgive us for them. That is so good to know, but even better than that, He also says that He will remember them no more! God has not just forgiven you, He has forgotten all about it; so you need to start doing the same. You can forgive yourself now, and start looking forward to that reunion!
  I have never mentioned my understanding on abortion here, but anyone who follows my diary would know I was against them for the pain they cause so many--and for the life that is cut short. My wife and I watch a program called "Faces of Abortion"; I know they would be a great help for someone like you if you wanted to get in touch with them--and your story would be one that they may want to share on one of their programs....Just a thought, but I know your story needs to be heard.
  I wish I had a name to use in my prayers for you....but for now I'll just remember you as one of my new friends. I'm so glad I stopped in....and I'll be around, Michael.

"""for evrytin,absolutely evrytin above and below; visible n invisible,.. everytin got started in him;and finds its purpose in him!!!"""

wenevr u need 2 talk 2 sm1; speak 2 god in prayer.... u dnt hav 2 b clean or holy, 2 step in2 e presence of god!! """come as ure""" as long u repent 4 all e sins dat u hv done... god will 4give u n accept u 4 who ure!!! vre indeed blessed 2 have a relationship of dis sought wit god...... b open ; stop searchin 4 him... cos if u search 4 him,u will always keep searchin 4 him!!! but stop n believe dat his dere 4 u.... n have faith in him!!! god has worked miracles in my life... but though he has always bein dere, i have always taken him 4 granted!! but wen i realise dat m wrong.... i kw dat my father wud b dere 4 me wit arms wide open!!! he is a 4givin god!! n a graceful one....

 vre not here in dis world 2 please ourselves... v were here 4 gods purpose. n each of us needs 2 find it....

if ure feelin lonely n sad its obviously coz dere is a block within u.. go 4 confession n confess all ur sins.. (trust me it helps) n read e word of god everyday!! its the ultimate tool 2 lead a life of virtue!!!

remember god hasnt promised a life without sorrow, even e most holy ppl of all times went through alot of things, but its e end result dat v shud all forcuss on...

so 1st of all.... come as ure says e lord...:) his ready 2 receive u wit watevr burden ure carryin!!

den give the truth 2 him.... b honest abt evrytin 2 him!! his always dere 2 listen:) although v nvr listen 2 him..

n surrender ur life 2 him!! god kwz wats best 4 all of us.. afterall it is he who created us, so he knows wats best 4 us:)

n lastly ask 4 e holy spirit 2 guide u..

through dese 4 steps u cud experience god:)

just remember dat god loves us anyway...... vre not perfect, but 2 him vre!!!

now go ahead.... talk 2 god!!! he is waitin:)

i hope things turn great 4 u... tc n god bless you!! n if u ever wanna talk... i will always b hear 2 listen 2 u!!

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